White Christmas Turning Blue - The Boppers

Just like any other year, Christmas is just around the corner. I'm so excited about it. This year, I have a very special Christmas wish. I wish to visit as many malls as I could and take picture with all the Christmas decorations there. I forgot how that came into my mind, but it's a possible mission I guess. Anyone care to join me? =)

I was talking with Daniel yesterday about camp. He was the leader of my group, Green5. To be honest, he was a lousy and irresposible leader. He didn't really mix around with us cause he was so into his Wilayah gang. However, yesterday, he was telling me how much he misses Green5 and us. He regretted for not appreciating the time he could have spent with us, and how he wished he could see all of us again.

Instantly, a thought came into my mind - why do humans always learn to appreciate things only after they are gone? And so I said to him 'You could have spend more time with us during camp right?'. My words left him speechless. From his reaction, I realised this is humans' nature. Humans only realised the importance of a certain thing or someone only when humans can no longer have it or own it.

This is a post to remind myself to appreciate what's already in front of me. I know I can't exactly appreciate small little things, like when I have my watch with me, I didn't really care about it until it's lost. But, I just want my life to have lesser if-onlys.

Whatcha Say - Jason Derulo

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Way Back Into Love - Hugh Grant & Haley Bennett

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99 Times - Kate Voegele

Down - Jay Sean

别管以后将如何结束

至少我们曾经相聚过

不必费心地彼此约束

更不需要言语的承诺

只要我们曾经拥有过

对你我来讲已经足够

人的一生有许多回忆

只愿你的追忆有个我

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I remember singing this on my graduation day. Sang it so many times, but feelings are still the same. I know there are goodbyes in life, but I get to choose, I don't want any. I hate goodbyes. Just like Auld Lang Syne, time gone by. Let go when it's time to, move on when it's time to, but don't forget them until your very last breathe.

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I envy those who can let go of things so easily. I can never do that. How I wish I could be in that moment forever and the clock stop ticking. Why isn't there a pause in life? I'm very greedy when it comes to this, I had it, but I want to own this moment forever and ever. Why do people have to leave? I know I'm not making much sense here, but it's just a thought that came across my mind.

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This isn't an emotional post, it's something sentimental. I am a very sentimental person. Everything feels like it's just yesterday's. Me singing those songs that I could sing them without thinking of the lyrics, songs that I sing everyday. All the songs seem to be flowing out of my mind now, how was it possible that I know so many awesome songs? Singing those songs again no longer has the same feelings. I feel old, lost and confused. Why is my childhood so clear in my mind? Perhaps that's the happiest moment in my life. And it's over. I'm already seventeen.

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Suddenly, I could remember my kindergarten mates. Their faces and hairs. Not their names, though. I had the photo with me. We were young and innocent. And my graduation night. I was on the stage represting all my mates to give a welcome speech. I danced, as a chinese girl, with two bum on each side of my head. Two strands of peach feathers ran around it. With a cheongsam look alike costum, but I didn't take any picture. I tried to find the casette on that night, it's no longer there anymore. I watched many times last time, but now I want to watch again so badly.

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I remember dancing to the I'm A Little Teapot song, and wearing the Hawaii Pan Hula skirt dancing to some song which I forgot the name. Ahhhhh... memories... I don't know why I suddenly feel this way, but I definitely miss everything back then =/